Links in The Chain (from my laptop)

Faith.

It can sure take you on a ride,
through a spin,
around the loop,
over a hill,
however you choose to say it.
It gets to us. Religion is a rough topic and can baffle even the most stable of minds. How it brings us to such realizations that we seem to understand for only a blink of an eye! Thoughts and revelations that become so clear that it seems you might combust with the sharpness of their clarity, but then, suddenly, it's gone.
Moments of clarity, or an epiphany, or a revelation, or a clear thought, whichever you prefer. How will we look at these moments once they have passed? Do we look back over our shoulders at them and scoff at our stupidity? Or do we turn to face them fully and smile with warm, open arms to embrace them once more?
I suppose that depends on the thought.
I have my moments, my thoughts, my clarity. More often than not, they are simply stupid ideas that I have a notion to build on, and occasionally act on. What a fool I seem at these moments. I always seem to regret the actions and theatrical performances I carry on with. I regret the actions, yes, but I often remember and cherish the lessons I learn from these stupid concepts.



Consequence.

The aftermath of an action.
The events that follow in a direct relation to the outcome of said action.
Some seem to amount to a great deal more than others. Some appear to be slightly ironic. Some just come about as either happy or irrelevant.
I have tendency to attract ironic and regretful consequences of my idiotic actions. I carry myself into a whirl wind of irrational and emotional events. My logic seems to slip away, fall completely, or simply hide and therefore my emotions take control.
I suppose you could say I have strong emotions because when they take over I become almost barbaric with instinct. If I could only teach myself to hold back my emotions and think logically before I allow my motions to become erotic and uncontrollable!
Perhaps then my actions might not bring about such drastic actions.
In light of such events I feel myself shrink, fill with shame, become vulnerable. My head droops, my shoulders slump, my body curls in on itself, my tears fall freely, my hands tremble, and my breathing comes in gasps. I feel as though I should curl in on myself in shame and realization of my stupidity so that perhaps others might not look at me so.
Shame seems to eat at me and my head begins to ache with the ferocity of its hunger. Shame, vulnerability, and embarrassment are emotions that I dearly love to hate and avoid. Though I try desperately to avoid them, it seems as though it finds me more than others.
These emotions might be hated my such as myself, but I honestly believe that it is good for us as humans, and as Christians (as I am) to help us grow in who we are and to help us understand where we stand in this world. It helps us to comprehend just how small we are in this life and just how unimportant certain things may be.



Faith and Consequence

Two things that I found myself face to face with today.
Faith; being such a simple word, easy to spell and say, short in thength; seems to be the harder of the two to comprehend and explain. More difficult to wrap up and carry around strongly, as though it were heavy, the word itself having the weight.
Consequence; long, complicated, drawn out, and still unsure on exact spelling; becomes the easier lead to carry. Why? Because it is simple, definable, requires no belief, no reason, it's simply a thing, an outcome.

Faith and Consequence: Two concepts I felt the need to explain.
Two things I had to own up to today.
Two words that I needed tested.
Two parts of a larger whole that we call life.

I have faith in my Lord, Jesus Christ and the fact that he faced the consequence we deserved with open arms and saved us from the things we undoubtedly deserved by our actions.
Just two more links in the chain.